You’re Not Patrick Bateman, You’re Jared Leto’s Attempt at The Joker

Misanthrope: a person who dislikes humankind and avoids human society.
I’d say, “LMAO ME,” but I dislike and avoid people who do that. Kidding.

Although, I do find the apathetic hater aesthetic super fucking cringe. Oh you’re just soo edgy and cool, aren’t you?

You think you’re Patrick Bateman but really you’re Jared Leto’s attempt at The Joker.

Who spends an embarrassing amount of time scrolling through the social media apps no one forced you to download. Just to leave mean comments, trolling creators under posts that have nothing to do with you, yapping on about how desperate they are for attention and likes…As you post your comment you specifically curated with the intention of receiving thousands of likes for your “hot take”.

Hoping that all the other miserable losers of the world unite and back you up by replying to your comment with laughing emojis and “lmao this!!”. So it’s like one big miserable loser fuck fest under your comment.

You’re just so much cooler, because you don’t engage in “attention-seeking” behavior. You don’t care about attention. You don’t care about anything right? That’s why you felt compelled enough to spend your own time and energy trying to make someone feel as much self-shame as you do. But you’re just soo logical and emotionless and numb right?

Yeah, you’re reaaally convincing us all.

And is that what all of this is truly about? Proving to the world this specific perception of yourself. A perception you admire. A perception you were tricked into believing was the most admirable.

You crave to attain the power, masculinity, wealth, “success”, intelligence, suaveness, alpha-type traits you see in Patrick Bateman and Jordan Belfort. People you define as “cool”. People you want to be representative of you. “Successful” people “at the top”. And you’re willing to sell your soul for it.

Because you trade whatever empathy you have left in you for whatever “power” you feel you lack.

Because, maybe somewhere, at some point in your life, you started feeling powerless. You started feeling like a fucking loser. Maybe someone made fun of you, told you how lame you were, didn’t want you back, didn’t love you back. And now, out of spite, you spend your time getting back at them or anyone you deem to be like them, engaging in behavior you think will push you into being a winner.

But you think your only path to becoming a winner is by putting down everyone you perceive to be above you in some way. Maybe you think they’re smarter than you, more charismatic than you, more wanted than you, more sought after than you, more admired than you, more confident than you, richer than you, happier than you, more fulfilled than you. Whether you want to admit it or not.

Hoping that you squash them down far enough beneath you that you inevitably become the one at the top. So you say and do things you think will make people feel less than. Minimizing the achievements of friends you’re secretly jealous of, bashing popular content creators, talking shit about the coworkers receiving praise from your boss.

But you don’t realize it’s all a perception game. All you’re doing is trying to change peoples perceptions. Peoples perceptions of themselves in hopes that they feel “not good enough” to go after their goals and therefore stop trying. Peoples perceptions of other people in hopes that it’ll make them less admired. Peoples perceptions of yourself to seem more successful and “better than”.

And your perception of yourself. Because deep down, that’s the root of your insecurities. If you had a high enough opinion of yourself, you wouldn’t feel the need to minimize the opinions of others. No amount of bashing or talking shit will make you any more successful or powerful…you just become even more of a loser.

So if you actually want to be all the cool things you aspire to be, maybe actually do cool things? I don’t think being an insecure troll who tears others down is one of them.

I guess one could consider me a hater for this post. But I do think there’s a difference between being a sassy girl who provides social commentary and being a whiney hater who tears down harmless people.

But if this is me “hating” then so be it! If me “hating” can stop one hater from hurting someone so much that they begin to hate humankind and avoids human society because of it, then I’m basically their savior right? Hater or savior? Altering my perception of myself to make it that of a savior.

I’m kidding by the way, I know I’m not a savior. Although…someones lack of ability to understand satire is annoying enough to force me into being a temporary hater.

But for now, I’ll choose to be a…lover(?) No, not that. Perhaps just something in the middle go being a “I love everyone and everything and am full of so much peace, love, and joy that it’s questionable and almost suspicious because that’s honestly a bit inhuman”-esque lover and a full-blown “wannabe Patrick Bateman but actually Jarod Leto’s attempt at The Joker”-esque hater.

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