monologues
Workout Routine
So I think the last time I posted my workout routine was 3 years ago when I wrote about how I lost 30lbs. But just like my life, it’s gone through a few drastic changes, so here’s an updated one! Back then, I was a die-hard cycling class fanatic, going almost everyday, and then of ... Read more
Skin
Hey, you don’t need a 10-step skincare routine, and you don’t need to keep ordering shit from Sephora. I used to struggle quite a lot with cystic acne (2021 was a rough year for my skin-and in general tbh). And I don’t know if it was me cutting out all the toxic relationships from my ... Read more
Wanting Everything & Nothing
“Perhaps when we find ourselves wanting everything, it is because we are dangerously close to wanting nothing” Really starting off this post with a Sylvia Plath quote, is it concerning to find her soo relatable? No but really, that quote speaksss to me. Yells, even. I feel like there’s so many lives I want to ... Read more
March 2023
March 9th, 2023, 10:20pm Here’s my attempt at making writing a habit again. I love writing, but I also find myself avoiding it. And that checks out. Because unfortunately I do have a habit of avoiding the things I love. When I really love something, it’s like…I’m scared of messing it up. And simply avoiding ... Read more
it’s time to let go.
October 3rd, 2022 – 10:10pm I felt a lot of sadness in August and a lot of anger in September. And that’s okay, that’s normal, I’m human. It’s just a part of life. It’s healthy to feel your feelings. And you should. But letting any emotion consume and control you can be really damaging. And ... Read more
September
September 6, 2022 – 9:33p Sometimes the universe will take someone out of your life. And you just have to let it. Because you’ve grown. But unfortunately that person hasn’t. And the universe is telling you it’s time. You’ve outgrown that person. You’re no longer aligned with that person, and it wants to give you ... Read more
You’re good enough for someone. But not me
“If I’m too much, go find less” I looove that quote. Because no, I’m not going to lower my standards, minimize my wants/needs or water myself down to be accepted by you. But in my first few relationships I would. I’d let people convince me that I’m being too much. For wanting a compliment every ... Read more
Nothing is forever & that’s ok
Sometimes I’m sad. Sometimes I’m very very sad. And it’s annoying. Because when you’re sad people will be like, “You’re sad again? I thought you healed your mental health and that you were happy now!” “Oh no! You’ve taken a step backwards!” And please. Shut the fuck up. Be realistic. It’s not like happiness is ... Read more
Trauma? Love? Life?
So you’re at the finish line. You’ve overcome every single fucked up obstacle that life threw at you. The ones that made you feel like you weren’t enough because you weren’t perfect in the way people expected you to be. But also the ones that made you water yourself down and suppress your personality. Because ... Read more
Crushes
Having a crush on someone is so fun yet so fucking terrifying. I pride myself in being ultra independent and free-spirited. I’m comfortable doing everything alone. I go out to eat alone, the movies alone, concerts alone. I live alone. I genuinely love being alone. But the moment I start liking someone, that part of ... Read more